Today is quite possibly the best day (which is saying something as it’s only 1 pm), at least mentally, that I’ve had so far on this fairly short journey. I completed Week 1 Day 2 of C25K today, and as exciting as that is, it wasn’t the best part.
Here’s a little background before I begin. I hate working out in front of people. I’ll do it, but I do not enjoy it. I always feel like every single person is judging me. “She’s too fat. Why is she even here?” One of the reasons I decided to use the trail for C25K is for its privacy. With that being said, I passed two other people on the trail today, a runner and a biker. I found myself pausing the app so I wouldn’t have to start “running” in front of this man who looks like he runs marathons. I knew I was being stupid even as I was doing it, but I couldn’t stop myself. He waved as he passed and went on his merry way. The same thing happened with the biker. He nodded and continued his ride.
They could not have known what their wave/nod meant to me.
That sounds dramatic (who me?) and probably is, but their acknowledgement was exactly what I needed. They made me feel like I was one of them, like I belonged. There was no judgement. I was just another person enjoying the day outside.
With this, I also realized that I need to have more faith in people. Being skinny does not mean a person is cruel (All of my friends are skinny, and I still like them after all). As much as I was afraid of being judged by those healthier than me, I was the one doing the judging.
Goodness gracious, that was deeper than I intended. On a lighter note, my workout kicked ass!
Week 1 Day 2 Complete!