Focus on Today

Apparently I am the queen of the blogging hiatus. I’ve done it about a million times, and I’ll probably do it a million times more. That’s one of my favorite things about this space though. I can come and go as I please because it’s more for me than for anyone else. This latest hiatus (does anyone else think this rhymes?) came as a result of a lack of motivation…again. Broken record, say what?

This time though it was more about trying to keep up with the blog. I was so worried about taking pictures and keeping track of everything during a run instead of just…running. I needed to make things simple again.

Unfortunately, simplifying my life turned into laziness. I sporadically ran/exercised, and I never really changed my diet. Sure, I’d go a day or two here and there tracking everything and not eating as much, but it never lasted for long. I, of course, continued to pay for weight watchers during this time because it was too difficult to admit to myself that I had stopped trying. Psych 101 over here.

Over the past few days though, I’ve started getting tired of the overeating, all of the crap that I put in my body, and the occasional half-hearted attempts at exercise to counteract the damage. I’m happy to say that I’ve tracked all of my food for the past two days, and I’m going to continue.

Instead of thinking of tomorrow, next week, next month, and all of the work that it will take, I’m working on today. I’m going to do the best that I can today. That’s really all that I can ask of myself.

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Chocoholic Frolic 10k…I survived.

Remember when I lost my mind and signed up to do a 10k? You probably don’t because I haven’t reminded you on purpose. Believe me, until about two weeks ago, I wasn’t reminding myself either. I thought I should probably at least start walking a few miles during the days leading up to the race, so that’s what I did. I didn’t run very often, and when I did, it wasn’t for more than a mile at a time. Why did I think I could pull running 6 miles out of my ass come race day? Who knows. I had that goal until I actually got there, and then I decided that finishing was enough for me. 6.2 miles is 6.2 miles no matter how long it takes you. Here are a few pictures from the race weekend!

One of my favorite quotes from the expo/race

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Before the raceIMG_2865-1At the start line

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IMG_2859-1My official time was 1:19:39 (12:50 pace), and I am perfectly fine with that.

IMG_2860-1I’m not too impressed with how the GPS worked through my RunKeeper app though. I promise I did the entire 6.2 miles!

Overall, I don’t think I would do this race again. The course consisted of two laps around the fairgrounds, which did not provide much in the way of scenery. So boring. I was also upset because they only had one water station set up, which meant two water stops total. When I did my 5k, I had at least two water stations for half the mileage. Not cool. I was also extremely underwhelmed by the chocolate portion of the Chocoholic Frolic. I’m not sure what I was expecting, but it certainly wasn’t a disgusting candy bar and a couple tablespoons of melted chocolate (which I didn’t even eat). I was expecting it to be completely awesome, and it was way disappointing. Not impressed at all. If I didn’t get to spend the time with my mom, it would’ve been way worse. I’m so proud of her for doing it with me!

The crazy thing is that I think I’m going to sign up for another 10k. Shocking, I know. I just can’t stomach never being able to run it completely. If I actually train this time, I know I can be better.

What do you think? Have I completely lost my mind?

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Non-Scale Victories 07/10/14

I absolutely love linking up on a Thursday for Non-Scale Victories. It’s my very favorite thing to post because although the scale might not be very nice to you, something else can be going right. It is impossible to get everything right all the time, and this space allows me to celebrate those moments or accomplishments, big or small, that are often overshadowed by all of the negative things that we see or do.

For example, if you read about my weigh-in from yesterday, I talked about how I switched scales and wasn’t sure if the 2.6 pounds it said I had gained was accurate. Update on that story – I got a new battery for my scale and checked the differences between the two. As it turns out, my scale weighs me a pound heavier than the other scale. So I actually gained 3.6 POUNDS IN A FREAKING WEEK. Disappointment in myself is the understatement of the century. I didn’t even know it was possible to gain that much weight in a week, but apparently, it is.

Talking with my mom though, she really made me believe that the scale isn’t a fully accurate portrayal of our behaviors. I drink quite a bit of water (admittedly, not as much as I probably should), and my sodium intake isn’t even on my radar right now. Both of those things could seriously contribute to that number. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not making excuses. I’ve eaten like crap more often than not during the past two weeks, and I definitely haven’t been consistent with my exercising. I’ve been participating in this link-up off and on for quite awhile now, and I think I’m just now really starting to understand the meaning behind it and how I can incorporate it into my life. The scale does not define me. If I make the best choices that I can most of the time, the scale will eventually reflect those positive behaviors. I supposed that could be considered a non-scale victory in itself, but I do have another – an update on my 10k training!

Last time I talked about my training, I had completed the first two days of the Couch to 10k training. As of now, I’ve finished through Week 5!

10K Training CollageI know that’s a little overwhelming, but I definitely need the proof that I’ve completed the day. If you’re looking closely (or can read it – oops), you might notice that there are a couple of days that are missing. That would be because I’m crazy.

Training Calendar

As you can see from my calendar, there are a couple of times that I went for a few days without training, which put me behind a little bit. The first half of the program is the same as Couch to 5k, which I’ve done before, so I didn’t think it would be a problem to skip ahead a little bit. I could handle it, right? Well, the day that I settled on just happens to be the end of Week 5…where they randomly throw a 20-minute-straight run at you. The week before you run for no more than 5 minutes at a time, and the week after is no more than 8 minutes. I normally don’t like to challenge myself like that, but my mom really inspired me. She’s running the race with me, and her thought was, “20 minutes? No problem if we do that together.” Well, she was right…about one part anyway. I did actually run the entire 20 minutes, without stopping once, but I wouldn’t exactly call it a walk in the park. That came after.

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My knees hurt…my legs hurt…I didn’t have my music…it was hot… all excuses that I was telling myself the entire time I was running. How did I keep going? Honestly, I’m really not sure, but I hope I can keep that strength going through the rest of my training.

IMG_2554Then this happened. I wasn’t lying – my knees really did hurt. Frozen produce for the win. No worries, they feel much better now. I do think new running shoes are on the horizon though. We’ll see how they do when I start Week 6 later today.

What are your non-scale victories?

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Back on the Binge Wagon: Non-Scale Victories 06/12/14

Originally, I wasn’t going to talk about this. Keep it a strictly celebratory post and just move on. That wouldn’t be real though, and above all else, that is what I hope to achieve here.

I’ve started doing my weigh-ins on Saturdays again. It gives me more time to sleep during the week and allows me the extra time to take my measurements and progress pictures. It also gives me more reason to stick to my plan on Friday night, which is always one of my biggest problems.

My weigh-in was awesome (11 pounds down!), and I was feeling really good about it. I thought that my success would help me stay on track for the rest of the weekend. Why would I do anything to derail the progress that I’ve been making these past couple of weeks?

Instead, I celebrated this milestone, in true Kristian fashion, with eating. Back on the Binge Wagon I go. Saturday night and Sunday were ridiculous. All of the leftover stuff from the open house last weekend? Yep, mine. Frozen pizza? Mine. Wine? Absolutely.

Like every binge, I felt really good when I was doing it. Followed closely by guilt and disgust. Did that stop me? Nope.

Where does the non-scale victory come in? Even though it started on Saturday and continued into Sunday, I stopped eating ridiculously on Sunday night. My brain finally started working and was able to say no. Even with the Johnny Rocket’s kid’s meal that I ate on Tuesday, I’ve been able to stay within my daily points every day this week. It’s a small victory but a victory nonetheless.

Onto something happier though – since last week’s post, I’ve officially completed Week 1 of Couch to 10k as well as the first day of the second week! I’m having issues with my phone though, so no pictures as proof. You’ll just have to take my word for it. Since I can’t use the app on my phone either, I’m planning to bike until Saturday when I should (hopefully) have my phone back. Then it’s back to training like normal!

Just because I needed it today.

Be yourself

Linking up with KTJ for non-scale victories!

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Running a 10k – What the hell have I done?

I did it. I actually did it.

I signed up for a 10k.

Just let that sink in. I’ll wait.

6.2 MILES! My jiggle has never bounced that far before.

Ducks fly around in my stomach at the mere thought of that much running. Why ducks? Well, bats are scary and butterflies don’t make me think of so much anxiety that all you want to do is throw yourself into a Buffy marathon for the next 24 to 48 hours. Because that’s totally what I’m feeling. I also had a duck for company on my first day of running. It was just the two of us in the park until he found a girlfriend and left me to hobble my way through the rest of the workout.

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Not cool, Mr. Duck.

I did actually complete the first day of Couch to 10k training, even without flying animals for company.

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IMG_2354-1This selfie brought to you by the torrential downpour that I had to run through. I wish I could say it’s sweat running down my face. Alas, it is not. Maybe next time.

No downpour for the second day, just the looming threat of one. No selfie either. Remind me to never use that word again.

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Now for the very best part – the actual race that I’ll be running!

Screenshot (20)If you can’t read that for some reason, it says the Chocoholic Frolic.

I run the risk of sounding like Chandler, but could there BE a more perfect race for me to run?!

I can’t stop saying the name in my head because it’s just that awesome. It rhymes! Not only is the name amazing, but I get goodies!

Screenshot (21)There aren’t many things I love more than free things – or rather, things that I paid for that just seem free when I get them. Who cares. It’s going to be awesome.

Linking up with KTJ and Samantha for non-scale victories!

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Non-Scale Victories 05/29/14

Linking up with KTJ and Samantha for another non-scale victory!

I was thirteen years old, a seventh grader at the big bad middle school. I hadn’t learned that having curly hair isn’t so bad…and I certainly hadn’t learned the value of leave-in conditioner.

I was rotating five different t-shirts to wear to school. This was one of them.

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7th grade

Those were the shirts that I felt the thinnest in, the ones that covered up my stomach.

With my mom, I decided to do something about it. Weight Watchers allowed kids (13+) to sign up with a doctor’s note, so that’s what I did. I had no idea what it was or how it was supposed to work. I only knew that it was supposed to make me lose weight. They gave me this little booklet for me to write down my food, and I went to a few meetings after weighing in. I even lost a little bit of weight, mostly because I didn’t want to write anything bad down in my little booklet. That booklet got old pretty fast, and we soon stopped going to weigh-ins and meetings. I gained that little amount of weight back…and then some.

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8th grade

Nine years later, and those two girls aren’t so very different.

I’ve decided to start Weight Watchers again.

You may be wondering why I’m calling this a non-scale victory. I’m finally taking control of my eating, and I think Weight Watchers will give me the tools to do that. It will allow me a little bit more freedom and flexibility with my food while still making healthy choices.

We’ll see how well it works for the open house this weekend. I can tell you from experience, those cupcakes are fantastic.

Believe me, there will be pictures.

It’s almost Friday!

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Non-Scale Victories 05/22/14

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Linking up with KTJ and Samantha for another non-scale victory!

This week I’ve really tried to incorporate exercise into my daily routine again. For me, that means riding my stationary bike while catching up on my shows. Dancing with the Stars and The Bachelorette anyone?

Side note: If Maks and Meryl don’t get married and have beautiful babies, I will be way disappointed.

Anyway, luckily for me, those two shows are typically pretty long. This usually gives me about an hour or more on the bike.

My mileage

My mileage

Excuse the crazy face, but I had just biked 20 MILES. It was a big moment.

I know I’m not always going to have the kind of time to do this, but I’m certainly enjoying it while it lasts!

What are your non-scale victories for the week?

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Non-Scale Victories 05/15/14

Hello, old friend.

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It’s been awhile since I’ve had any non-scale victories to share with you guys. Let’s be honest, it seems like it’s been awhile since I’ve shared any victories with you guys.

As you know, running and I have never been the best of friends. I even told you some time ago that I was giving it up. But…

I actually went for a walk/jog on Monday at my favorite park.

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I didn’t feel any pressure to run at a certain time, so I mostly walked. I jogged when I felt like it, and I stopped when I felt like it. IT WAS GLORIOUS. I also burned some calories!

 

IMG_2169This victory plus the return of beautiful weather has brought on what I can only describe as a mental episode. For some reason, I want to run a 10k. This summer. What the hell is wrong with me?

I haven’t decided for sure if I’m going to do it or not. The fact that I spent over an hour looking up potential races is neither here nor there. I am seriously considering it though, and I think I’ve talked mi madre into joining up too.

What do you guys think? Yay or nay?

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Virtual Whiplash

I feel like I’m all over the place lately. Am I running, biking, eating my weight in chocolate and Taco Bell? I don’t even know sometimes, but I’m starting to figure out why I might be feeling a little lost. Every day, I’m getting a million different messages on what ‘healthy’ means and how to achieve it – from blogs I read to social media to magazines to television.

RUNNING!

BIKING!

ONLY CARDIO!

NO CARDIO!

LIFTING HEAVY!

WALKING!

ZUMBA!

CROSSFIT!

GLUTEN-FREE!

PALEO!

LOW-CARB!

WEIGHT WATCHERS!

I’ve got virtual whiplash over here.

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My mind just can’t keep up. My head hurts from trying to figure out how to somehow incorporate all of it into my life. and it’s not working. I end up doing nothing because doing the ‘right’ thing just seems too hard and too confusing.

Too many thoughts

I’m starting to realize though that there is no ‘right’ thing. At least, my ‘right’ thing isn’t going to be the same as your ‘right’ thing.

AND THAT’S OK.

Peace out holmes.

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Five on Friday: Goals Edition

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Linking up for another edition of Five on Friday today with April, Christina, Natasha, and Darci!

It’s a short and sweet one today. Since I’ve officially moved back home, I’ve already started sliding back into terrible habits. It’s just too easy. With this Five on Friday, I’m going to share the five weight-related goals that I’ve set for myself. Maybe it will help me remember exactly what I need to accomplish. I know, I know, the scale isn’t everything.

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I can’t help but use it as a major measuring stick of my progress though. With that being said, here they are!

Five on Friday - 1

164 lbs!

This is the 15-pound mark from my starting weight of 179.

Five on Friday - 2

155 lbs!

This is the weight that is listed on my license. Come on, you know you do it.

Five on Friday - 3

149 lbs!

This is the 30-pound mark from my starting weight of 179.

Five on Friday - 4

134 lbs!

This is the 45-pound mark from my starting weight of 179.

Five on Friday - 5

129 lbs!

This is my ultimate goal weight and the 50-pound mark from my starting weight of 179. This is also my lowest weight from when I lost weight the first time around.

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Happy Friday!

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